As we close the door on one of the most fascinating years I've personally experienced as a living, breathing sentient being we find ourselves as a species standing on the precipice. 2012 is here in full affect and fuck knows what to expect. End of the world? Global Revolution? Well, I guess there are somethings we can control more than others and after what has been a pretty depressing couple of weeks for yours truly I attempt to sobre up, make a plan, get some sleep and continue to attempt to make something of this one life we have on this earth.
Today has been the day when I get my shit together, take my head out my arse (to an extent) and start trying to take a bit more responsibility for my existence. For the last two weeks I've been wallowing in self-pity, dissapointment and a deep sense of isolation and loneliness that hit me like an apocolyptic comet that wasn't on the radar. There are many factors involved but that's getting boring now. What's exciting however is that I'm alive, I'm full of potential and I have the capacity to develop, to learn, to love, to overcome and to proactively choose what I do with my life. If all of us proactively chose to work together and take action collectively then no doubt we could create a world based on our deepest desires and dreams.
For my first blog entry of 2012 I want to share with you something I do whenever I'm feeling demotivated, depressed or generally out of touch with what matters. Every week I go swimming, usually 2 or 3 times and I do a series of thought exercises over about 25 lengths. Every 2 lengths I focus on a particular question as a way of gaining a more balanced and concentrated perspective on the things that matter. Today I began by diving into the pool and swam the first 8 lengths trying to meditate, to think of nothing, to feel the water against my skin, feel the air in my lungs but think of nothing. I find it almost impossible but that's the nature of the game. Thoughts come and go yet we aim to be completely in the moment, no thoughts, just awake, aware, concentrated and at one.
Lengths 8 – 10: What are my motivations? I am for pleasure, against pain, for peace, against war, for equality, against authority, for love against hate, for happiness, against depression, for solidarity, against division, for sustainability, against environmental destruction, for joy, against sorrow, for life, against death, for participation, against exclusion, for creativity, against consumerism, for freedom, against oppression, for critical thinking, against indoctrination, for D.I.Y culture and collectives, against the corporations and hierarchy, for anarchism, against capitalism....
Lengths 11 -12: What did I achieve last year? In Feb SE asked me to facilitate an intergenerational community day in Brum, myself RR and JC facilitated an Open Space Technology workshop in Derby, In March I organised with the help of loads of ace people a For The People 30th birthday special that raised funds for City-Zine at Redemption which was followed shortly by the March 23rd,protests in London. In April myself, RR and JC organised an Open Space Technology meeting on the day of the Royal Wedding, in June I helped organise and host Love Music Hate Racism, myself and JS dipped our toes in the water of street performance by the waterfall on the same day as the City-Zen Collective organised a fundraiser for Movimento Passe Livre, I helped to build for the J30 strike, in July I organised a series of popular education workshops about understanding the spending cuts followed in August by a series about resisting the spending cuts, I applied for a job at the national summer residential youth project the Challenge Network as a team mentor but got asked to apply for senior mentor then eventually got employed as Assistant Team Leader, in September I helped to host and promote Derby Music Month as well as perform on the splash stage by the waterfall as a part of Derby Feste, throughout October and November I helped to facilitate a part of the Sound Track Derby project through QUAD which culminated in an excellent performance by some very talented MCs, in October myself RS, RR and JH attended the Radical Media Conference and shortly after published and distributed the first edition of the RamPAGES newsletter, whilst in London that weekend we participated in the Block The Bill action called by UK Uncut and also took action the following week against the Royal Bank of Scotland with Derby Uncut, on November 5th City-Zen Against the Cuts took to the Derby market square for the first of many street events, which was also accompanied that day by an action by Derby Uncut against Primark and Burtons, throughout November I helped to build towards the N30 strikes which City-Zen also took to the streets for, in November & DecemberI also helped to facilitate an anti-capitalism workshop, film showings of the Take and the Shock Doctrine as well as a workshop about Civil Unrest for a Global Youth Work regional conference in Nottingham, on December 17th City-Zen took to the streets again with a free shop, info stall, entertainment, food and more for Shop Less, Share More City-Zen and finally the young people I work with at Baby People Pupil Referral Unit launched their first mixtape which we'd been working on that term and 1000 copies of City-Zine 15 was also published just in time for Christmas. Much love, thanks and solidarity to everyone who was involved in all of these different projects throughout the year. Keep up the good work.
Lengths 13 – 14...to be continued
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